Lifelong Affliction!

Last night, little R was most uncomfortable - kept waking up every couple of hours - which was odd since she's been a very disciplined baby since she was six months old and sleeps right through the night. We should've guessed. I passed on my cold to her and what started as a little runny dot soon developed into a little continuous river. It's been her third brush with cold in the nineteen months of her existence (she favours an upset tummy more - like her mum!) so naturally she's irritated.

However, the point of this post is- that despite sleeping just an hour in the early morning and nursing a  cold, sore throat (so bad that my entire back hurts when I cough) myself, I got the energy to run R through her morning milk, breakfast, bath, lunch and subsequent nap with play- without feeling out of sorts. The exact feeling I had when she was a month old and nurse every couple of hours around the clock and stay awake till 4 am. 

Guess this sleeplessness is a lifelong affliction! 

And then there are some...

- Whose role is just to provide for the family, be an ideal for listening and implementing strange advice (which may be outdated but who cares, as far as advice is concerned only two things work- it's freely available and impervious of time) and generally not open their mouths to all forms of injustice.

- The world thrives on hypocrisy. It is too frail to accept truth and as long as one lies, all are happy.

- Does it take too much for a kind word or a small gesture to an 'outsider' who has been part of your family for ten years now?

- Daughters in law will remain just that. Tied and gagged by the law and never replace daughters.

- Your mother knows you best. Even when you haven't spoken/ told her that you're suffering from fever and neglect, an SMS asking if all is well will mysteriously appear in your phone. The umbilical cord never gets cut.

- Sisters are the best listeners.

The permanence of Now

When I was a couple of years younger, I had long term vision and a single minded objective. Once that goal was reached, I find myself often wondering why I am so fixated on the concept of the permanence of Now. Everything assumes gigantic proportions in the Now and it's difficult for me to think that this problematic now will ease itself off in some time. 

I do, of course, still have long term vision and immediate goals but sometimes I'm pulled down by this Now.

What do I do?